The title just appeared when I put the cursor in the box so...it may have nothing to do with this post.
I've been overwhelmed a lot lately. Too many obligations, long hours freelancing, and a bunch of "want tos" that I try to squeeze in. The problem isn't the time I'm putting into all this stuff, it's my attitude. I, for some reason, default to believing that I need to live this life to the fullest. But being full isn't necessarily the heart of that message.
I just don't rest lately. Hebrews has a wonderful passage or two about rest and entering into it. I seem to find that periodically and read it very slowly. One of the few I just can't make myself rush through. (Ironic, I suppose.)
It is so different knowing something and doing that thing. I know that a full life really depends on the ability to function well, be balanced and other things. I know it would be wise to rest and decompress so that it would be easier to enjoy things and cope with other things. So why don't I do it? Even after God tells me to rest, I do not.
It's the "just one more thing, really quickly" or the "if I do this now I won't have to later" or the belief "there will be no time later." When it comes down to it, arrogance. If I don't do the things God asks me to do for my well-being then I must think God was kidding or God is dumb or I am smarter.
